Little Wonders

On the eponymous TV show, Dexter, a serial killer goes into NA to placate his girlfriend who mistakenly believes he’s a heroin addict. Although Dexter’s there under false pretenses, he begins to fall under the sway of the twelve step program and under their watchful guidance he begins to accept who he really is. I’m only through the middle of the second season so I don’t yet know if that works in his favor at the end of the day, but watching it last night at 1:30 in the morning after promising myself all day I would be in bed by 10:00, I found myself wondering if I shouldn’t try a twelve step program myself.

Hello, my name is Wonder, and I’m a TV junkie.

I listened to a lecture Michael Lutin gave at UAC recently about “The Power of the Sun,” in which he said that the thing you must do when you lose energy is that thing your sun tells you to do as indicated by sign and house position. Which struck me, ’cause it occurs to me that people with 12th house suns like mine need to lose energy in order to gain it. And people with strong Neptune contacts, natch, but let’s stick with the 12th house, ’cause it so neatly aligns with my 12 step metaphor. Anyway, in order to gain energy a person with a twelfth house sun needs to escape all the things that make the sun the sun. We need to escape ourselves in order to become ourselves. It could be very zen, if you play it right, obviously, or you could just smoke a lot of pot and watch a ton of TV…

Anyway, it occurs to me that once again I’m tempted to blame a problem on my chart, but since the first step to recovery is to admit you have a problem, I can’t do that. I repeat: my name is Wonder, and I’m a TV junkie. This blog is my methadone, my meeting, and the splenda in my decaf. It’s my escape from my escape.

Stay tuned!